Active Student!Mara is here! :)

Okay,first of all I praise Allah for the rezeki that I had now and after.Alhamdulillah,syukran ya Allah!After a while waiting,cursing Mara the Loan finally the money is here!Thanks to Allah and Alhamdulillah.Yes,I admit I praise Allah when I think I need to but it shouldn't be that way right? I'm thank Allah for the loan. And yes I owe another loan about RM9k and woshh I need to pay that on my own!Alhamdulillah,I paid my dad's money back and spend half of the money for family and myself. Well,this is your opportunity to help yourself on finance I guess.And yes!I spend half of the money on my saving account!For the future,I believer that we need to have plan for the future or else you might stuck there forever.Hmm,I've realize that money is not everything but money can make you and yourself overdose.Trust me.Well,this loan is for studies and I will keep reminding me,my friends and lovely cousin "Mighaaaa!!!" that this money is for studies and not for fun stuff.InsyaAllah,amin.Hope that everyone will get their rewards before semester break.Everyone in pressure though waiting for the money.Waiting is tiring but if you keep waiting it could be more than worth it. Okay,that's too strong!.If Allah say yes then there will be your rezeki.Amin. :)

I've been cheated before.

Yes,I've been cheated before.I've been cheated so many times.Well,F to that anyway and this is not right at all.I hate those people who makes it look nice for me but in the end things turn like damn shit.I hate people that used their words to make me be with them and stay.I don't like that,I don't enjoy that!Dude,if you really wants me,so do the math.You really need  to count every single thing and make it real for me.I don't find it fun if you hurt me and cheat on me.Not a good thing to do.Ain't cool liddat.That's a shit.

Morning world.

Crap,class being postponed and I was at the college like damn early!Okay,no need to be so freak out anyway.Well,happy friday everyone!Good morning everyone!Glad we already in the weekend,woot woot.Hehehe,I'm so happy with my report done by the time and things have been settle before the revision week.Well,I have lotsa lotsa presentation to be done!I wish the presentation turns out to be good and smoothly. Hmm,so scared. So people all over the world, tell me how not to nervous infront of the aundience and the lecturer? Goodddd,I don't like this I don't like this!So anyway!It's already revision week and I can't wait for the semester break!Gosh I really need to be away from college life!I really need time for myself but thinking of myself without money.Oh nooo. Well,just wait for the money then. Hehehe,can't wait to have the Iphone4s to be mine!Ngeeee! :D

Too many things need to be done.

God,please I need a break!Ughhh!!

I wasn't sorry.

I refused to say the words.The words that shows that I was really deeply "Sorry" for everything that I've done before.I was really reluctant to say that I was sorry and yes I wasn't sorry after all.I was mad,I was really mad. I don't find it fun any longer to be the most important person that could stand to sit next to you and be the for you.I was hurt and I had enough.We're not like before and I'm happy to be on my way than stay here and be with you.As time flies,we will learn something that we never expect to be the great thing that happens to us.I wasn't sorry leaving you,I wasn't sorry for crying,I wasn't sorry for being mad,I wasn't sorry to be the last to know that you are really bad ass.I wasn't sorry.It's my choice and not yours.

Copeland - Chin Up

Back to where we started,
Losing who we were,
Maybe we should only
Tip a bottle back to keep us filled up.

Back to where we started,
Losing who we were,
Everybody knows that,
You’d break your neck to keep your chin up.

Dear tuesday,I really hate you.

It's not intention to kutuk but yes you make me sakit hati.

Memang dalam dunia ni semua orang nak kena ikut cara kau,cara kau pakai,cara kau jalan and sekian sekian. But wait up,who the hell are you? Who the hell you think you are? Kau fikir kau dah cukup bagus? Well present? Good enough to be that great? Well,hellooo excuse me.Kau tak hebat mana pun ok.You are not even that close!Sedar diri sikit!You making me bengang with you,dengan cara kau,dengan muka baik kau tu kau fikir aku suka sangat?Please,you can be my guess to be in THE HATE LIST THAT ME CREATE FOR PEOPLE LIKE YOU.Yeah,I don't find that hatred is the best solution but when you're being so damn stressful what should I do to stop you? Well yeah,making you hating me even more I guess.I don't like people judge someone from what they look like but to be admit kalau dah over tu mak ngah please la ok sedar diri sikit la.Tak perlu kot nak ada orang tegur kau,menganjing kau.Eh,tak malu ke?I bet you don't have any idea whom I talked about.Kalau terasa,please terasa.Tak payah nak buat bodoh tak nampak.Aku tak suka.Tahu?Damn,pagi pagi buta buat aku sakit hati.Sumpah aku sakit hati dengan kau.Nak bengang tak payah lepas kat aku la.Apa kau ingat aku ni mesin.Heh.

I need new cell phone!

Well,I'm dying for this so money please and please keep flow in my pocket.I want this so damn freaking bad.

P/s : Dear boyfriend,please be mine.I love you.

Komplot!Shoot!

Awesome band,I miss this so much.

I need money.

I've been waiting for the loan like a year and yes until now I don't get what I deserve.What is this? What kind of business you run over here? Like hello,I've been waiting all my life just to get my money and you asked me to wait again and again.I wish you know how it feels like to wait for something that you really really need.Like emergency calls!Urgh!

I don't feel good.

Yes,I don't feel good.I feel bad,sad and all those bad nasty damn feeling.I don't enjoy this,I don't like this and I refused to be in this manner.It feels like it's just not me.I don't like to be alone in this situation.I need some entertainment to heal me up but wait do I have the choice? NO.I never get that chances because yes I'm still sad as I keep stand here all by myself.It's hard to get up by yourself.I find that it's like I was drowning in the ocean and no one could hear my voice that reaching for help.I don't remember how it feels like to be free.Free as the bird,free as the bee.I don't remember that moment.So please,please.I don't feel good.I'm bad,I'm a fool,I'm a bad lover.I don't get that.I don't really don't get that.I'm confused,I need help.Please do figure me out instead of asking me what had happen to me.

Sometimes reality are not real.

Referring to my title,I felt that sometimes reality doesn't look nice or even real.I hope I was right about this.It is not a good deal when you need to face some of real matter to be a reality thing.I don't want this to be happen but somehow it is a true thing that yet will be happen sooner or later.Hmm,kindly please don't happen yet.I'm not ready and when I think about it,it makes me feel down and scared of what might happen to him.I love my dad,I really do.He's one and only father I have.Thinking about what will happen next I'm completely not ready for this.Dear Allah,please take a good care of him I don't want to lose him.I bet my mom feel the same one but when people said "Terima je la,sabar" I cannot deal with it.Tell me now,is there anyone that could be patient and accept when you are surely confirm that your parents are in well health situation and doctor told you that he only had 31% chances of heart function? Anyone? I bet no one could take that!I'm not good in controlling my temper but I love both my parents.They are everything.Love you guys a lot. :(

P/s : One more thing,dear family,the reason why I refused to stay far away from my family is that I don't want to be apart with my dad.I don't want that to be happen now.

The reason why I wasted my tears.

The reason why I had my tears run down my cheeks.I felt I'm not being exposed with the world with what I have,what I can be.I hate my body parts but I enjoy eat.I want people know what I'm good at and stop judge me on the first place.Get to know and you'll know who I really am. 

Even when I’m walking on barb wire

Even when I sat myself on fire

Why do I always feel invisible, invisible

Everyday I try to lock my past

Even though inside I’m such a mess

Why do I always feel invisible, invisible

The Thing is I Think You are Completely Stupid.

It's been a long time since my last post.I just don't find a right time or a better stories that I think it's the best to share in here.Well,I've been away like a years I mean err zillion!I guess but I think so. (What the hell?!) Hahaha,well life's treating me real damn good and I'm getting fat fatter fatters.Oh no,hmmmm sobs sobs :'( Well anyway!Back to my title up there!I've met with various people with busuk perangai.I think you do not know what I'm babbling about.Okay,here's the story and yes do stick on my page as I keep rolling my eyes and type this words down.Nah nah bla bla bla!Okay,done with babbling.So,when you are in the college with people that comes from all over places including the sabahan and the sarawakian. You will find like few of them,eh no,like huge number of them is a PLASTIC!Good in making stories and really likes attention.As in bahasa "BAJET RETIS GITU".I've met this group of people that like to talk dirty about others!A.K.A talam berjuta muka.I'm completely don't understand why on earth this people keep on doing this stupid thing.Eveything that they talk about can't be trusted and wanting to get others mercy.Five words for you boy,"Kepala otak kau la do!" Maybe they wanting our attention so badly,so much due to some reason but when this thing becoming a habit I think most everyone would distinguish you and rejecting you like straight away!Damn,don't you feel pity to yourself? You think by creating sweet like gula gula stories you will be accepted in the society? Trust me,you will go down down down.The real thing is that I think you are completely stupid and annoyed me to the max.Godai you beach. -.-

P/s : Knowing and trust you is my friend biggest mistakes.

I don't really hope that much.

Yes,I don't really hope for you to come as for the reason wanted to be with me.For me,that is not enough to fullfill all the inquiries  that I put in the list "Boyfriend & other wish list".I don't really hope that much,that's all I can say.Be what you can be,be what you wanted to be,be what the best you can be,be the real you.The real person that changes everything,how people thinks about put it aside.They don't know what we know,what we have and what we share together.I want you to be mine but I guess I don't have that guts to tell that I really like you and I want to share everything that I have with you.You know what? Thats sucks.To be in silent and no one knows the idea why and why and why I'm like this.Hmm,I wish I have that strength to tell everything and know you better.I'm sorry,I don't brave enough to show you what I want to show.Sorry. :(

Hey,can I have you? :)

Hey,can I have you? I mean for time being I really like you and I wanna know you more.Yeah,perhaps we could together until we die? I really mean it for you that make me giggle and smile everytime we're having issues and jokes.I like you,yes I did said that like 2second ago.You're something that I bet people looking for.Especially girls not to mention the one the "patah" tu.Hehe,sorry for that anyway!I really wanna have you.I did hope and yes this involving huge risk which is my heart.Please and please stay forever.I'll keep you save,I promise you. :)

I love my girlfriend!

I love this girl and she is my super awesome cousin! <3 I love her more than everything and yes she is my bestfriend.Like no other bff. We share our things together and we're even have the same T-shirt!Haha,we love shopping and eat eat and eat.We're love money and no lie about it.We love gadgets and we love cute things.Ayayaya this girl drive me insane.Not to mention every jokes that we had.Hehehe.I love you Amirah Saad!Stay a little bit more don't let my heart and soul.Ecececeh.

P/s : Benda yang hang suka that aku paling arif is that TIDOQ TAK HINGAT DUNIA.Hahaha.

Go Harimau!Go go!

Malaysia,tanah airku!To HarimauMalaya,you guys did a great jobbb!!!Awesome game,you guys did a great job.Some people might say that the game macam kureng but dear supporters you need to think that this is the best that they can do.Yela,come on la takan la dorang tu nak jatuhkan maruah negara sendiri it's just that rezeki tu tak ada lagi.So to all Harimau Malaya supporters take a chill pill.So to all the pakcik pakcik that tengok game today bawa bawa la bersabar la eh.Pergi check darah tinggi ke,kencing manis ke kot kot la terbawa bawa because of the game.To Malaysians,this team are the most good team that we have for this century so show some respect don't just critic them.Show some respect and give them a support with saying "Good job,great game,very excellent" come on la takan nak marah marah at them kot.I don't think we should.They need all the support.Like today,semua orang pulun pergi stadium tengok bola.Expectation tu memang la kena ada tapi rezeki tu belum tentu lagi DIA nak bagi maybe sekarang bukan masanya lagi.Orang cakap rezeki tu ada mana mana if we work hard to get it hasilnya akan datang juga.For me,I was very proud of my Harimau Malaya team member.Every each of them did a great job.Semua hebat not just Khairul Fahmi,Amirul Hadi.All the team member did a great job in the game.So guys,to all Harimau Malaya supporters keep up the spirits.Pejuang pejuang Harimau Malaya sekalian,don't give up because the supporters do care about you.Go Harimau! <33

P/S : Sorry for the manglish and my bahasa quit rosak. -.-

Why on earth you need to show people that you're cool enough? Ain't that menggelabah?

Sounds like I dislikes this person.I mean YES,definitely!Well,I love to be open about something.We need to do that right?So whether you like or dislikes I don't care.I never ever care because talk is cheap.Really cheap than rupiah.As for the title,I would like to say that I don't really like my society at all and plus I hate it.They're not show a good quality of a good teacher.Well dude,get a real facts about being a TESL students.You need to be ECOFRIENDLY TO THE NATURE.To the society!It's a must.Come on lah,why you need to be so that annoying? People,we're in the 2011 and stop acting like a badass!If you're a president,act like one.If you're a captain so show some progress!Move your damn lazy ass.I don't think that I need to mention your name in my blog.Its not like I'm afraid to do so its just I don't think that will solve any of the problem that you had with the other "pretendpresident".So people out there,society is very important to all of us and it's a must to respect each other.Please be matured and be a cool kid.Come on people,show some respect and stop being so that euw cold to each other.It won't help you to be good leader.Stop being menggelabah all the time,people find it irritating. -.-

P/s : I don't label people,I'm just being honest for our own good. -.-

TEACHING GRAMMAR,please please don't hate me that much. XD

Say no to MALAS? Errr,I don't think so!

I love Malas.Being malas such a great thing to do I mean as for me!Hahaha,well this is not a positive word to the parents or to some "nerdy" kids.Err,so sorry to mention you guys in my blog.I'm just saying,geeee.Well,back to the topic!I love malas word a lot!It makes me feel so real me and so close to me.I bet no one in the world never felt boring.Boring is very popular ok.If I need to give a ranking,I would give it top in my list!Hahaha,obviously we do know that boring is a very dangerous especially to student like me.Damn,why me?!Well,dude FACE IT!You need to face it.That is the real in thing in the world that you cannot doubt the truth about it.Hmmm,I bet I'm very the malas person on the earth!But I did survive somehow.I love being malas and malas already had been apart of my life.So deal with it everyone!Mmmmm,got lotsa lotsa work to do this week.Gtg,night all readers,stalker and bloggerrsss! <33

P/s : Do you really need to be that punk ha punk kid? Thought so he's punk. -.-

English in progress!

I'm taking TESL or well known as Teaching English as a Second Language.Do I need to tell you which college? Nahh,better don't.HEHE.Well,back to track!Okay,as I mention before I'm taking TESL so everything that I do or need or must do are relating to english.So whatever that I'm doing is relating to english study.So the major subject for this course is GRAMMAR ok GRAMMAR.You know what is GRAMMAR?I bet you know what GRAMMAR all about.Anyway,what so interesting about grammar is that I never get an A for that subject and never ever close to A-! To be surprise I don't have that much interest towards this study but I'm taking TESL.So,on what purpose or logical reason why am I taking this course in the first place?Well,I don't have answer for that I mean for now.Errr.However,all I know is that I'm deeply in loved with english and I want to have a legal certificate for this TESL course!Maybe grammar is not that important anyway and yet my english is in progress! XD

Hey you over there,I'm new but not so new! :)

Hi,I'm new kid and hi hi hi hi bla bla bla.Well,you guys might get bored with the introduction right? Yes people,I'm a human too you seee?!Hehe,well this site had welcoming me like it always did.I praise Allah for that indeed.So,back to what I had before this you see as the malay says "Dah makin tua macam macam dah lupa".So,basically I forgot my email and password for my very very own blog!Hahaha,well what to do.Hihi,so this is my new account and I'm hoping that I would not or ever forget my email for this site.Well a little introduction for my new born "baby".Okay,here we gooo woot woot!My name is Nur Faatihah Amdan and dislikes reading but I like to express my thoughts in my own in no matter how stupid the idea that I had in my very own original brain.HA HA HA.So I'm nineteen and I mean TO BE okay? -.- I'm not that young and not that too old.Okay,so plastic.URGH. -.- Well,it is nice to have blog again.Can wait to post so many things inside here!Yey!Hehe,I'm student and I'm proud to say that I love to be a student rather than as a promoter.Opssieee.I'm plain and yes I AM SARCASTIC.Okay guys,I'm done with this sick introduction of myself. :)

P/s : Boleh tak aku kata aku malasssss! XD