I don't feel good.

Yes,I don't feel good.I feel bad,sad and all those bad nasty damn feeling.I don't enjoy this,I don't like this and I refused to be in this manner.It feels like it's just not me.I don't like to be alone in this situation.I need some entertainment to heal me up but wait do I have the choice? NO.I never get that chances because yes I'm still sad as I keep stand here all by myself.It's hard to get up by yourself.I find that it's like I was drowning in the ocean and no one could hear my voice that reaching for help.I don't remember how it feels like to be free.Free as the bird,free as the bee.I don't remember that moment.So please,please.I don't feel good.I'm bad,I'm a fool,I'm a bad lover.I don't get that.I don't really don't get that.I'm confused,I need help.Please do figure me out instead of asking me what had happen to me.