I've been cheated before.

Yes,I've been cheated before.I've been cheated so many times.Well,F to that anyway and this is not right at all.I hate those people who makes it look nice for me but in the end things turn like damn shit.I hate people that used their words to make me be with them and stay.I don't like that,I don't enjoy that!Dude,if you really wants me,so do the math.You really need  to count every single thing and make it real for me.I don't find it fun if you hurt me and cheat on me.Not a good thing to do.Ain't cool liddat.That's a shit.

Morning world.

Crap,class being postponed and I was at the college like damn early!Okay,no need to be so freak out anyway.Well,happy friday everyone!Good morning everyone!Glad we already in the weekend,woot woot.Hehehe,I'm so happy with my report done by the time and things have been settle before the revision week.Well,I have lotsa lotsa presentation to be done!I wish the presentation turns out to be good and smoothly. Hmm,so scared. So people all over the world, tell me how not to nervous infront of the aundience and the lecturer? Goodddd,I don't like this I don't like this!So anyway!It's already revision week and I can't wait for the semester break!Gosh I really need to be away from college life!I really need time for myself but thinking of myself without money.Oh nooo. Well,just wait for the money then. Hehehe,can't wait to have the Iphone4s to be mine!Ngeeee! :D

Too many things need to be done.

God,please I need a break!Ughhh!!

I wasn't sorry.

I refused to say the words.The words that shows that I was really deeply "Sorry" for everything that I've done before.I was really reluctant to say that I was sorry and yes I wasn't sorry after all.I was mad,I was really mad. I don't find it fun any longer to be the most important person that could stand to sit next to you and be the for you.I was hurt and I had enough.We're not like before and I'm happy to be on my way than stay here and be with you.As time flies,we will learn something that we never expect to be the great thing that happens to us.I wasn't sorry leaving you,I wasn't sorry for crying,I wasn't sorry for being mad,I wasn't sorry to be the last to know that you are really bad ass.I wasn't sorry.It's my choice and not yours.

Copeland - Chin Up

Back to where we started,
Losing who we were,
Maybe we should only
Tip a bottle back to keep us filled up.

Back to where we started,
Losing who we were,
Everybody knows that,
You’d break your neck to keep your chin up.

Dear tuesday,I really hate you.

It's not intention to kutuk but yes you make me sakit hati.

Memang dalam dunia ni semua orang nak kena ikut cara kau,cara kau pakai,cara kau jalan and sekian sekian. But wait up,who the hell are you? Who the hell you think you are? Kau fikir kau dah cukup bagus? Well present? Good enough to be that great? Well,hellooo excuse me.Kau tak hebat mana pun ok.You are not even that close!Sedar diri sikit!You making me bengang with you,dengan cara kau,dengan muka baik kau tu kau fikir aku suka sangat?Please,you can be my guess to be in THE HATE LIST THAT ME CREATE FOR PEOPLE LIKE YOU.Yeah,I don't find that hatred is the best solution but when you're being so damn stressful what should I do to stop you? Well yeah,making you hating me even more I guess.I don't like people judge someone from what they look like but to be admit kalau dah over tu mak ngah please la ok sedar diri sikit la.Tak perlu kot nak ada orang tegur kau,menganjing kau.Eh,tak malu ke?I bet you don't have any idea whom I talked about.Kalau terasa,please terasa.Tak payah nak buat bodoh tak nampak.Aku tak suka.Tahu?Damn,pagi pagi buta buat aku sakit hati.Sumpah aku sakit hati dengan kau.Nak bengang tak payah lepas kat aku la.Apa kau ingat aku ni mesin.Heh.

I need new cell phone!

Well,I'm dying for this so money please and please keep flow in my pocket.I want this so damn freaking bad.

P/s : Dear boyfriend,please be mine.I love you.

Komplot!Shoot!

Awesome band,I miss this so much.

I need money.

I've been waiting for the loan like a year and yes until now I don't get what I deserve.What is this? What kind of business you run over here? Like hello,I've been waiting all my life just to get my money and you asked me to wait again and again.I wish you know how it feels like to wait for something that you really really need.Like emergency calls!Urgh!

I don't feel good.

Yes,I don't feel good.I feel bad,sad and all those bad nasty damn feeling.I don't enjoy this,I don't like this and I refused to be in this manner.It feels like it's just not me.I don't like to be alone in this situation.I need some entertainment to heal me up but wait do I have the choice? NO.I never get that chances because yes I'm still sad as I keep stand here all by myself.It's hard to get up by yourself.I find that it's like I was drowning in the ocean and no one could hear my voice that reaching for help.I don't remember how it feels like to be free.Free as the bird,free as the bee.I don't remember that moment.So please,please.I don't feel good.I'm bad,I'm a fool,I'm a bad lover.I don't get that.I don't really don't get that.I'm confused,I need help.Please do figure me out instead of asking me what had happen to me.

Sometimes reality are not real.

Referring to my title,I felt that sometimes reality doesn't look nice or even real.I hope I was right about this.It is not a good deal when you need to face some of real matter to be a reality thing.I don't want this to be happen but somehow it is a true thing that yet will be happen sooner or later.Hmm,kindly please don't happen yet.I'm not ready and when I think about it,it makes me feel down and scared of what might happen to him.I love my dad,I really do.He's one and only father I have.Thinking about what will happen next I'm completely not ready for this.Dear Allah,please take a good care of him I don't want to lose him.I bet my mom feel the same one but when people said "Terima je la,sabar" I cannot deal with it.Tell me now,is there anyone that could be patient and accept when you are surely confirm that your parents are in well health situation and doctor told you that he only had 31% chances of heart function? Anyone? I bet no one could take that!I'm not good in controlling my temper but I love both my parents.They are everything.Love you guys a lot. :(

P/s : One more thing,dear family,the reason why I refused to stay far away from my family is that I don't want to be apart with my dad.I don't want that to be happen now.

The reason why I wasted my tears.

The reason why I had my tears run down my cheeks.I felt I'm not being exposed with the world with what I have,what I can be.I hate my body parts but I enjoy eat.I want people know what I'm good at and stop judge me on the first place.Get to know and you'll know who I really am. 

Even when I’m walking on barb wire

Even when I sat myself on fire

Why do I always feel invisible, invisible

Everyday I try to lock my past

Even though inside I’m such a mess

Why do I always feel invisible, invisible